My day is just getting started. So many decisions to make. I’m not sure where to begin. I guess I will start with telling myself I am beautiful and I love me. Today Monday, February 20, 2017 is going to be a great day. GOD is worthy to be praised. I love the Lord.
It began almost 30 years ago. I saw him…
I was standing at the top of the stairs and he was working in the store. I said to myself, “He is so handsome; one day he is going to be my husband.” That day changed my life forever. I had no idea it would take almost 30 years. He would marry someone else and so did I. The roads we traveled separately were tumultuous and daunting. Don’t get me wrong there has been good times over the years. Everything hasn’t been all bad. Thinking back everything that I have been through was preparing me for this moment. The moment I have dreamed countless times about. The moment that I thought would never come to fruition; especially after so many years I admit I lost faith.
Losing faith but still asking God, What’s the deal? If he and I are not suppose to be together remove him from my heart. I mean I do believe If I ask for something and I am sincere in my asking I will receive whatever it is I am requesting. Yes, it works. I am living proof of asking and receiving. I have done it many, many times but my request about this particular topic was falling on death ears so much so that every time I asked he would come back stronger. No matter what I did or said I couldn’t shake him.
and so it has come to fruition…He is mine and I am his…
Everything happens for a reason. It’s been a long 29 years and finally; after all the tears, relationships that didn’t work for whatever reason, more tears. Searching and thinking I found him only to find out I was trying to make it be something it wasn’t. To everyone that walked away Thankyou. You cleared the path for him.
I love to talk to you, it’s not everyday that a woman finds a man she loves talking too.
paraphrased from Barry White’s I can’t believe you love me.
Intimate relationships are built on trust. If the trust is broken it can be one of the most difficult things to gain back. There is no time limit on when the person will trust you again. It is totally up to them. You have to admit you were wrong and not do whatever it was to cause the trust to be broken in your relationship in the first place. You have to be consistent, reliable and understanding if you truly love the person and they are who you want to be with. It may take a very long time. Unfortunately, you both may have to let go if they are unable to trust you again. My suggestion if you love someone cherish them and protect their heart. True love is so hard to find.
Please bless and protect eveyone I encounter directly and indirectly. AMEN